My heart is open
I realized tonight that my heart is opening up.
2019 feels different already than any year in my past 31 years.
Suddenly, it feels like I’m making friends left and right and thats never been the case. Recently my heart has been focused on my home more than every before and making it a space for my family to thrive. My heart has been focusing on connecting to people who really understand me. My life feels good and different even if the landscape hasn’t really changed.
And that also made me realize that my heart has been closed for a lot of years now. I think that is because my heart has been hurt. My heart has been hurt by friends who wouldn’t reciprocate. My heart has been hurt by family members who make bad decisions. My heart has been hurt by mistakes I have made.
But it seems now that my heart is finding a comforting place wherever I go and whatever decisions I have been making.
Suddenly I have been trusting that I know myself, that I can figure things out easily, that I can get work done. I am learning I can trust my instincts. I am learning that people do like me. I am learning that people want to receive from me the creative gifts that I can create for them.
Suddenly I am realizing, I am a business owner who is managing motherhood, wifey life, and doing okay. Right now I feel good and okay and I hope this feeling continues to blossom.
I have new ideas and creative endeavors pouring from my heart everyday. I have meaningful work to do daily that brings my heart joy. And I have children and a husband who love me deeply.
I guess I just wanted to take a moment and reflect that things are good. That I am doing good. And that isn’t something Im used to.
Right now I am so thankful for what I have and I will continue to chose to be thankful and live in grace the rest of the year.
Peace and Love –
Kayla K
Photographer at kaylakohn.com
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